Thank you all for the incredible support that this amazing community has offered me during what has been the most difficult year of my life. As some of you have learned, my dearest wife Ali passed away several months ago. She succumbed to complications from Stage 4 colon cancer. I was holding her hand when she passed in our apartment in San Francisco. She was pain-free, and surrounded by loved ones.
She was nothing short of the most loving, extraordinary wife and friend, and my life will never be the same without her. Most of all, I wanted those of you here to know how incredibly supportive my wife was on my journey to realize my greatest creative aspirations. She was amazing for literally a thousand other reasons, but here on this forum, I want every fan of Leviathan to know that this podcast would not have been possible without Ali.
From the first moment Leviathan was conceived in a diner on street corner by the United Nations as I excitedly explained to my wife my vision of what an audio drama could be, to the moments when I eagerly showed Ali the work we were doing with our Kickstarter campaign last Fall while she lay in bed, she encouraged Leviathan relentlessly. She listened arduously while we refined our soundscape, and read countless drafts of scripts while offering her insight and ideas. She cared for the entire production team, and loved reading letters that fans would write in. Ali loved Leviathan.
My greatest desire was for Ali to have witnessed us complete Leviathan before she passed. Sadly, time ran out on us.
Not many partners would forgo a down payment on a house to chase a dream, especially one as unlikely as podcasting. But Ali believed in hope, as well as the vision to watch dreams come to fruition. She humbled me with her encouragement, support and bottomless generosity. Even at times when we had setbacks, when I doubted my ability to write and handle the increasing complexity of Leviathan’s production, Ali believed in me. And whenever the choice was given between a day job in finance or a career in writing and creating new media, she supported me unconditionally and implored me to follow my heart no matter what sacrifice the path might require of both of us.
She did it gladly. She smiled. She cheered. She consoled. She believed in Leviathan every single step of the way. She wasn’t a science fiction fan generally, but she loved the passion behind our community. I remember her at Dragon-Con singing with PG Holyfield. She recruited friends to help me shill Leviathan CDs at NY Comic-Con. In fact, our original tagline, “Immortality or Freedom: Which would you choose?” was conceived by Ali.
I’ve never wished for immortality more, or wanted Leviathan to be more real.
2017 is a year of renewal for me. I look forward to engage with life and the living and embrace the passion of writing that has brought me the most satisfying pleasure I’ve known. To be candid, I’m still feeling the emotional pain of mourning. There are still some days that I can barely move. I suspect it is something that will change over time, while still always being a part of me.
But one of the purposes of this post is to let you all know that we are taking the first steps in bringing Leviathan back to the internet.
Nobi has flown out to spend this week with me in San Francisco start the pre-production process to finish Season 2. We’ve been going over the remaining scripts and determining what actors we need, what scenes need to be finished, and making sure everything ties together. I have writing I need to do, and Nobi has some of his own magic to perform. I’m not giving any time lines at this point, but we expect to be relaunching our Kickstarter campaign later this year to give us the capital we need to finish Leviathan, as well as provide a springboard for future audio drama titles that we’ve been planning for a long time.
This past year has shown me how painfully short life can be, but it has also reminded me the importance of following dreams like Leviathan and the stories that will come after.
Thank you again for the incredible kindness that so many of you have bestowed upon me over the past several months, and the years since we launched Leviathan. At a time when so much of my world doesn’t make any sense anymore, the only truth that I’ve found is that to create is to live. I plan on moving forward, embracing life, and I plan on creating much much more.
All my best to all of you in this wonderful community, and I look forward to speaking with you again very soon.